I am not Good enough to be my son's mother..
I am not Good enough to be my parent's daughter..
I am not Good enough to be my sibling's Elder sister.
I am not Good enough to Trust humans..

I am a failure.. Really a failure in everything I guess..
I want to gives my son loves, and I am not trying hard enough to give him.. I owe my son too much for everything... Does he really has a cheerful childhood or I have pass my stress to towards my son?
I always lose my temper on him, I know it is not right but I simply cannot control myself..
What is so wrong in me??

I want to gives my parents, to less worry about my son and I.. But I think, I make them worry more than before.. It is because I lose my tempered towards them before.. In my heart I really feel bad.. VERY BAD... i feel extremely ashamed of myself..

I want to have nice talks / chatting with my younger siblings but we seldom talk heartily..
Why !! Why!! Why am I such a failure that I cannot cope things well..

My current job, I like my job.. Boss is nice but not the colleagues.. They are devils..
At first, I thought that was my issued of over sensitives but I know it wasn't me..
Because I try my best to get things done and solve but there are these 2 lady, back stab me ad want to lead me to out of job.. I trust them so much end up with they are more senior than me, Boss choose to believes what they had said rather than seeing I have actually trying to solve the problem..

Why they are not solving the problems and actually they are creating they problems in such a small company..?
Till now, I have yet thinking of leaving my company, main thing is I like this job.
Secondly, is I have to work harder than others as I need to take care of my son..
I have so much to spend on my son.. If you are a parents, you should know what I mean...

I wish my heart is strong enough to protect myself from the 2 devils.. and also I wish my family members are safe, happy and healthy!!!

Name: Richel
D.O.B: 07th Sept
Sales Administrator

To be love by everyone (heehee)
Have a Happy Ending with Everything

The things i NEED in my life :
is not MONEY but LOVE
is not CARE & CONCERN but RESPECT from YOU!!!
I don't want you to give me JOY
But i want you to give me HAPPINESS.
I don't want you to see me SMILE
Coz i want you to hear my LAUGHTER.
I don't want you to CONSOLE me when i'm feeling down
I juz want you to CHEER me up instead.


*Nintendo DS Lite Coral Pink
*Titus Watch
*New Adidas Jacket
*Get my Certificate for Business Admin