I had been away from my blog for years..

• I am back to Single again since Year 2012, November but I am happy with my decision.

• I have got a BTO (4-room flat) for my son and myself (it may be a burden but I am proud of myself for getting a flat all by my own).

• I had a promotion in my job title but not with my salary increase (it sound stupid though for not increasing my pay but work-load increase, anyway I am the only employee for now so it doesn't really matter for now but I will fight for salary increment by End of Year 2013, "FIGHTING"!!).

Upcoming plans and goals:

1. Spend more time with my precious son on his studies,
2. Stay healthy and hope to recover from Thyroid,
3. Prepare monies aside for my Flat's renovation, furniture, etc;
4. What else?? To be update.. =X

It have been so long that I did not write anything here since my last blog at Year 2011.

This world is so REALITY that No matter what is happening or going on now, we have to face it and solve it. Not just running away from it.. And you will know, you are actually learning and upgrading yourselves or myself.

I am happy with my current job as a Sales Administrator cum Logistics Officer.
Though I am the only employee and my boss is always out of town. I can feel that my boss actually trust me so much that he can actually let me handles the works and also take care of the office.
I can see my prospect in me with this company, and I will put in more effort in my work to become my career and also put in effort to spend more time with my precious son..

莫生气

人生就像一场戏，因为有缘才相聚。

相扶到老不容易，是否更该去珍惜。

为了小事发脾气，回头想想又何必。

别人生气我不气，气出病来无人替。

我若气死谁如意，况且伤神又费力。

邻居亲朋不要比，儿孙琐事由它去。

吃苦享乐在一起，神仙羡慕好伴侣。

他人气我我不气，我的心中有主意。

君子量大同天地，好坏事物包在里。

小人量小不容人，常常气人气自己。

世间万事般般有，岂能尽如我的意。

弥勒菩萨笑哈哈，大着肚子装天地。

他人骂我，当着儿戏。

高骂上天，低骂地。

我若该骂，给我好教意。

我若无其事，他骂自己。

若不学忍，气上加气。

因气得了病，体无人替。

多少人，因气丢了命。

他人来气我，我偏不生气。

阿弥陀佛，万病皆化去

我回来了！！

对不起大家！！ 我好久没有上载我的境况。。 近来都好吗？？

首先，我要宣布的是。。过了那么多年，我终于打破了“Single Hood”。
谢谢老天爷让我认识了“他”也让我不再一个人面对问题与困难。我和“他” 都有过不是很美满的婚姻，所以我们因为失去过才会很珍惜彼此。我相信，未来会组织幸福美满的家庭。。

宝贝，不管路有多艰难。我都会陪着你走完。。

After 3 months with my current company.. I notice that my currents colleagues are all "CC", means Cover Backside (In hokkien).

Why I say so, is because they will twist their words in order to protect themselves.
Getting sick and tired with this UNHEALTHY working environment.

Boss, has no trust with my work due to there are few ladies in my office. They like to chat with my boss and lady boss.
I know they have been working with my company at least 3 years but aren't they know that work means work and gossip just to past time...! Don't you all know that??

But I would rather you all just shut your mouth and concentrate on your work.. Do not by-pass me. And make me feel irritated. . .

I just don't know why, they like to show me their BLACK face, whereby it is not me to spoil their day!

Really sick of working in this company.. But I can't just leave / resign as I wish as I still have to support my son for his expenses and also his education till he grown up..

GOD BLESS ME & MY FAMILY ! !

I am not Good enough to be my son's mother..
I am not Good enough to be my parent's daughter..
I am not Good enough to be my sibling's Elder sister.
I am not Good enough to Trust humans..

I am a failure.. Really a failure in everything I guess..
I want to gives my son loves, and I am not trying hard enough to give him.. I owe my son too much for everything... Does he really has a cheerful childhood or I have pass my stress to towards my son?
I always lose my temper on him, I know it is not right but I simply cannot control myself..
What is so wrong in me??

I want to gives my parents, to less worry about my son and I.. But I think, I make them worry more than before.. It is because I lose my tempered towards them before.. In my heart I really feel bad.. VERY BAD... i feel extremely ashamed of myself..

I want to have nice talks / chatting with my younger siblings but we seldom talk heartily..
Why !! Why!! Why am I such a failure that I cannot cope things well..

My current job, I like my job.. Boss is nice but not the colleagues.. They are devils..
At first, I thought that was my issued of over sensitives but I know it wasn't me..
Because I try my best to get things done and solve but there are these 2 lady, back stab me ad want to lead me to out of job.. I trust them so much end up with they are more senior than me, Boss choose to believes what they had said rather than seeing I have actually trying to solve the problem..

Why they are not solving the problems and actually they are creating they problems in such a small company..?
Till now, I have yet thinking of leaving my company, main thing is I like this job.
Secondly, is I have to work harder than others as I need to take care of my son..
I have so much to spend on my son.. If you are a parents, you should know what I mean...

I wish my heart is strong enough to protect myself from the 2 devils.. and also I wish my family members are safe, happy and healthy!!!

Why ! WHY!? Why always like that, when I like my job and the colleagues was like so bad??
Mot just bully me as a New staff, but also play around with words when I am so much in trust with the Finance Manager. . . But in the end, I get back stab by this A/c manager..

I am trying to get my job done before the weekends, but she simply just twist her words and push me to death.. I am not afraid of getting scolding from boss, but not worth it when it is not my fault.. But I know, my greatest fault I have made was: TRUST IN PEOPLE TOO EASILY, especially when comes to work.

Now I get what my scolding and disappointment from Boss for nothing.. Just my luck!

I can only tell myself:
Do not let your fear become a obstacle towards you, never fear to move on !

Oh my, my darling is running fever again. . . And beside having fever at 38.9 degree C, he also have a gastric flu.
Today is his second day with his fever did not decrease but increase. Today, we went to consult Doctor again, and he get another new medicine to protect his gastric.

I am so heartache whenever my darling falls sick.
Cannot 100% concentrate on my work, on the other hand was worried about my son.
Whether he takes his medicine or not.

May his sickness ALL GO AWAY FROM HIM . . . .
Fever fever go away!

Darling, JIA YOU !

Name: Richel
D.O.B: 07th Sept
Sales Administrator

To be love by everyone (heehee)
Have a Happy Ending with Everything

The things i NEED in my life :
is not MONEY but LOVE
is not CARE & CONCERN but RESPECT from YOU!!!
I don't want you to give me JOY
But i want you to give me HAPPINESS.
I don't want you to see me SMILE
Coz i want you to hear my LAUGHTER.
I don't want you to CONSOLE me when i'm feeling down
I juz want you to CHEER me up instead.


*Nintendo DS Lite Coral Pink
*Titus Watch
*New Adidas Jacket
*Get my Certificate for Business Admin