Wednesday, May 19, 2010 Y
After 3 months with my current company.. I notice that my currents colleagues are all "CC", means Cover Backside (In hokkien).
Why I say so, is because they will twist their words in order to protect themselves.
Getting sick and tired with this UNHEALTHY working environment.
Boss, has no trust with my work due to there are few ladies in my office. They like to chat with my boss and lady boss.
I know they have been working with my company at least 3 years but aren't they know that work means work and gossip just to past time...! Don't you all know that??
But I would rather you all just shut your mouth and concentrate on your work.. Do not by-pass me. And make me feel irritated. . .
I just don't know why, they like to show me their BLACK face, whereby it is not me to spoil their day!
Really sick of working in this company.. But I can't just leave / resign as I wish as I still have to support my son for his expenses and also his education till he grown up..
GOD BLESS ME & MY FAMILY ! !
I'm 100% Devoted To You
Sunday, May 16, 2010 Y
I am not Good enough to be my son's mother..
I am not Good enough to be my parent's daughter..
I am not Good enough to be my sibling's Elder sister.
I am not Good enough to Trust humans..
I am a failure.. Really a failure in everything I guess..
I want to gives my son loves, and I am not trying hard enough to give him.. I owe my son too much for everything... Does he really has a cheerful childhood or I have pass my stress to towards my son?
I always lose my temper on him, I know it is not right but I simply cannot control myself..
What is so wrong in me??
I want to gives my parents, to less worry about my son and I.. But I think, I make them worry more than before.. It is because I lose my tempered towards them before.. In my heart I really feel bad.. VERY BAD... i feel extremely ashamed of myself..
I want to have nice talks / chatting with my younger siblings but we seldom talk heartily..
Why !! Why!! Why am I such a failure that I cannot cope things well..
My current job, I like my job.. Boss is nice but not the colleagues.. They are devils..
At first, I thought that was my issued of over sensitives but I know it wasn't me..
Because I try my best to get things done and solve but there are these 2 lady, back stab me ad want to lead me to out of job.. I trust them so much end up with they are more senior than me, Boss choose to believes what they had said rather than seeing I have actually trying to solve the problem..
Why they are not solving the problems and actually they are creating they problems in such a small company..?
Till now, I have yet thinking of leaving my company, main thing is I like this job.
Secondly, is I have to work harder than others as I need to take care of my son..
I have so much to spend on my son.. If you are a parents, you should know what I mean...
I wish my heart is strong enough to protect myself from the 2 devils.. and also I wish my family members are safe, happy and healthy!!!
I'm 100% Devoted To You
Saturday, May 15, 2010 Y
Why ! WHY!? Why always like that, when I like my job and the colleagues was like so bad??
Mot just bully me as a New staff, but also play around with words when I am so much in trust with the Finance Manager. . . But in the end, I get back stab by this A/c manager..
I am trying to get my job done before the weekends, but she simply just twist her words and push me to death.. I am not afraid of getting scolding from boss, but not worth it when it is not my fault.. But I know, my greatest fault I have made was: TRUST IN PEOPLE TOO EASILY, especially when comes to work.
Now I get what my scolding and disappointment from Boss for nothing.. Just my luck!
I can only tell myself:
Do not let your fear become a obstacle towards you, never fear to move on !
I'm 100% Devoted To You
Monday, May 10, 2010 Y
Oh my, my darling is running fever again. . . And beside having fever at 38.9 degree C, he also have a gastric flu.
Today is his second day with his fever did not decrease but increase. Today, we went to consult Doctor again, and he get another new medicine to protect his gastric.
I am so heartache whenever my darling falls sick.
Cannot 100% concentrate on my work, on the other hand was worried about my son.
Whether he takes his medicine or not.
May his sickness ALL GO AWAY FROM HIM . . . .
Fever fever go away!
Darling, JIA YOU !
I'm 100% Devoted To You
Monday, May 03, 2010 Y
Hey hey..
This is a Batik painting from my son to me.
Nice right!
Thou I am the one paying but he is the one who paint it himself without my accompany.
As we both were out yesterday (02 May 2010) to Downtown East with my ex-classmate Eric and also my new fren and her 5mths old son. He is so cute and small...
Long time never carry such a small baby.. Feel scary.. lol...
Attached is the drawing by my dearest son....
Thank you CDQ, he is the photographer.. hahaha
I'm 100% Devoted To You
